Around Suffolk In 40 Stories

When we were in lockdown (I’m sure many sentences start that way!), some research was done to try and find out why so many people were reporting a fairly significant loss of memory. The research found that random conversations that we have while out and about, are vital in keeping a part of the brain alive that also stimulates memory. I’m sure there is a much fancier pants way of detailing the research but that is the bottom line, we need to hear people’s stories for our brain to function. People’s stories are not a luxury, some fancy indulgence to pass the time of day with a pint in the pub or round the fire, stories are the very essence of who we are.

I was lucky enough to be approached by Suffolk Libraries to come up with an idea for storytelling. Now, I am passionate about people’s stories, they are the very thing that are going to stop this ship of humanity from sinking, they are the stuff of life, they are what connects us all around this fabulous planet. So, I came up with the idea that we go around Suffolk In 40 Stories with each person nominating the next person to have a chat with, in that way it would have its own legs rather than being construed or hand picked. It started with Melissa Matthews who is the creative genius resident at Suffolk Libraries and it was really down to her about which direction it was all going to sail in. Thankfully, she chose Tonia who was person number two and a complete inspiration and she chose Antonio and he chose Pierre and so it went on. I basically sat on my sofa meeting loads of really cool people who were very generous with their time and with their stories. It is an enormous privilege to be able to be on the receiving end of people’s stories as I think most of us would feel somewhat vulnerable and filled with trepidation if we were asked to just talk. About what?? ‘I haven’t got anything to say’, is a common refrain (and they are often the most interesting people of all just as a heads up). People often say that they can’t remember any stories and I always think that it’s not that we don’t tell stories because we can’t remember them but that we can’t remember them because we don’t tell stories. Does that make sense? Anyway, I am in awe of these people who have shared their stories and the most generous thing that people can do is to give their time and I will be forever grateful to these beautiful people for having done that.

Each conversation was pretty long, which was probably my fault as I love chatting. I wanted to edit the podcast interviews down to ten minutes each, a palatable length to listen to, a ‘chatting over the garden fence’ length of time if you will. It was not easy! I really hope that I have been able to do these people credit. All the while, when getting to meet all these new people, I could feel my brain firing up, neuron pathways galloping to new destinations, memories rising to the surface singing and dancing as they thought they had been forever consigned to oblivion. It was completely and utterly life and soul restoring.

Here is the link to listen to the stories – Around Suffolk In 40 Stories

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Please enjoy the stories and please let it be an inspiration to get out there and have random conversations. By just turning round and chatting to the person next to you in the queue you are restoring humanity to the planet and that’s a pretty big deal. Do let me know what you think of the stories. The quality of the recording is not great on some of them, but they were over zoom and I am an amateur so we’re not looking at perfection in the polished sense but absolute perfection in a story sense.

The Heart(h) Of The Home

This is my final day at Talliston House and Gardens thanks to the Essex Book Festival. (I mean, it is thanks to the Essex Book Festival that I am here at all, not thanks to them that it is the last day). I have spent quite a lot of time in the kitchen which, to me, is often the heart of the home. At Talliston, the kitchen is New Orleans in 1954 and this is where Joe, in the book, is catapulted through the portal in the Labyrinth after he has been to the Welsh Watchtower. This all makes LOADS more sense if you actually come here. I’m not entirely sure that I have done the house justice, and the level of work and devotion that is poured into the place. Hemmingway said that the only way to write about a place is to leave it, so maybe I’ll get a whole different view of it once I am back home again.

Some things are hard to capture with words. Many of the things that are most important to humans have only the vaguest of words to communicate them with. If you think about the really huge things – love, courage, meaning, purpose, solidarity, soul, spirit, community – the words don’t really do them justice. Instead, we have them put to us in terms of statistics and monetary value, ways that make us feel that we don’t all have a stake in the most important things in life. I love the Winnie the Pooh quote, that travels its way around social media, where Piglet asks Pooh how to spell love and Pooh replies that you don’t spell it, you feel it. This house has a lot of love in it and the glory is that it is shared by, and with, each person that steps foot in here, it’s not hoarded like a dragon sitting on some massive love hoard and belting people down if they step over the threshold. The truth is that when you leave a place, you carry it with you. People also leave a presence in a place when they are no longer there.

As with all things that are pretty gorgeous, it’s not just done and that’s it. The work is continuous. There are a whole team of people devoted to this house because it represents so much more than bricks and mortar and an extraordinary tale to tell. So many people have poured their hard work and loyalty into this house and you can feel it. As Ursula Le Guin says so beautifully, ‘Love doesn’t just sit there like a stone, it has to be made, like bread, remade all the time, made new.’ Each person leaves their mark, as it were, and I hope I leave a positive trail behind. I have actually hidden some little clay friends around the house as new playmates for the Roman Gods, Greek Gods, Pan, Papa Legba, Owls, Ships, Bees, Eagles, Bears and the plethora of delights that fill every space and who knows if they will be found any time soon. Around the house is also to be found alchemical script which, when translated, means ‘Absolute Excess In Total Moderation.’ I’ll leave you with that one…

The alchemical script around the house does chime with our need to find a new language to live our lives by as we emerge from this peculiar last year. It feels as though we all need a system upgrade, a new language where everyone puts their hand under the stone. A new language that involves way more listening to each other, to the world around us and within us and a deep listening to all of the spaces in between for that is where the magic lies. We have fallen into a binary narrative – left/right, black/white, capitalism/communism – when, in truth, there are many different ways and there is definitely a gentler, less divisive way that sails through the middle of the very binary narrative that we are being fed. Talliston might seem like a nuts thing to do but it is so much more than that. It is showing another way of living that celebrates the genius in everyone. It celebrates people working together and rejoicing in difference and to consider the wisdom that we each have to offer. There are many levels of learning to be had here and, like any good story, you can take it at the level that you wish at any particular time. Personally, Talliston, and John and Marcus, make me want to be the best version of myself and to be of service in my finest form. As John would say, ‘What’s the alternative?’

From tomorrow, April 12th, the world starts to open its doors once more. I have no idea how that is going to work, a relief for some, a dread and fear for others and a mixture of the two for most I believe. There are several good things that will definitely be happening and that is that the book shops will be open, we might be able to hang around in small groups and tell stories and Talliston House and Gardens will be flinging open its doors once more. At Talliston you can come for a guided tour which I can absolutely guarantee will be like no other guided tour you will, and have, ever been on. I have saved the best for last and that is Marcus, who is the host with the most. You can have tea prepared by Marcus or a meal cooked and served along with a huge dose of laughter and kindness. You can come and stay here for a night, two nights, however long you like I’m guessing. You can hold book groups here, parties, fancy dress. You think of it and I am pretty sure that Talliston will accommodate. You will probably go back home and be inspired to create a spacestation in the bathroom. After a year of rest, Talliston is itching to welcome people back over the threshold and through the many portals. It comes with a warning, however, this place is addictive and once you have been, I imagine that it is hard not to return. I will be bidding a fond farewell to my lovely cedar cabin but I have a feeling that it won’t be too long before I am back again.

I just leave you with a final bit of wisdom from Arthur K. Watson – ‘Show me a man with both feet on the ground, and I’ll show you a man who can’t put his pants on.’

Oh and the Japanese 7 Lucky Gods who sit in the conservatory which is Japan in 2283…

EBISU – Represents prosperity, abundance of food, patron of fishermen, represented in a fisherman’s costume;

DAIKOKUTEN -God of prosperity, abundance of crop. He is shown standing on two bales of rice, holding a wooden hammer;

BISHAMONTEN – Patron of military men, he is represented carrying a weapon and a magic pagoda;

BENAZITEN = Goddess of fine arts, patron of painter, writers, dancers, geisha, all entertainers;

FUKUROKUJU -God of learning, wisdom and luck. Also patron of chess players;

JUROJIN – God of the elderly and longevity, recognised by his distinctive long skull and white beard;

HOTEI – God of family harmony and happiness, guardian protector of children.

So now you know…

The Essex Labyrinth

A Labyrinth is not a Maze and a Maze is not a Labyrinth. That took me years to work out. A Maze is a puzzle to be solved, it is designed to confuse you and get you lost.A Labyrinth has a single continuous path that leads to the centre and the same path leading back out again. A Maze has multiple paths that branch off and will not necessarily lead to the centre. A Labyrinth looks like a Maze, but it is not, A Labyrinth has no dead ends, there is only one path and, while it does have twists and turns, you cannot get lost. As long as you keep going, you will get to the centre eventually and back out again.

At Talliston, the Labyrinth is a key feature. The photo above is of a 20,000 year old standing stone in the front garden of Talliston and the Labyrinth is etched upon the stone. It’s message here is about magic and the pursuit of dreams and adventures. In the book of Talliston, the story is of 13 year old Joe who travels through portals in the Labyrinth, journeying to times and places where magic is disappearing from the world. There is also a strong environmental message here in that magical places really are disappearing from our world and quite fast it would seem. The story is of an ordinary boy on an extraordinary journey and Talliston is an ordinary house turned into something quite extraordinary. John has taken what life was presenting him with and turned it on his head. John has walked the path of the labyrinth within this house and invites others to walk their own path here too.

Labyrinths are thousands of years old. They are not religious but they are used by many religions as a tool to connect with God or whoever you might wish to connect with, they can be used as a form of pilgrimage if you like. The labyrinth is designed to release your state of stress and also to receive the wisdom along the path, the idea being that you return with new knowledge. Along the journey of the labyrinth, we arrive at seemingly random moments that serve to form our story and as we travel further inwards towards the centre of the Labyrinth, our worlds become infinitely more humble. Along the route we can connect with ourselves in a transformational way, explore a sense of wonder and connect with whatever you perceive might be the divine. Pretty cool and you can see why people have been doing this for millennia.

There is a strong thing within the Labyrinth about finding your own path, getting some clarity and sorting out intentions, finding peace. You know, all of the biggies. As an archetype, a Labyrinth is something that transcends, it is where two worlds can flow together. There is the visible and the invisible world. The finite and the infinite and, as there is a clear path, there is no guesswork involved. It is like life but much safer. It is a shape that is found abundantly in nature and it is a design that is often used to symbolise change, movement and growth. I have always wondered about the similarity between the labyrinth and the fingerprint. I guess, as a crossover, as with our fingerprints being unique, so are our hopes, dreams and fears that we bring to our individual journey within the Labyrinth of our lives. The rings of a tree look like our fingerprints, which look like a Labyrinth, which looks like our brains. Well, the photos I have seen of brains look like Labyrinths anyway. I have never seen an actual brain. I don’t know whether that has some deep and meaningful meaning but, visually, it is a thing at least. I guess, as with a Labyrinth, we only have one brain, it is our own unique brain and you can always be certain of being on the right path as it is the only path to be on. There is a whole thing about there being a bony labyrinth within our temporal bone and that contains loads of dna but I only have the fascination of that subject, rather than actual knowledge, to back that up. You can see how quickly you can disappear down the rabbit hole in this house…

Staying at Talliston becomes its very own Labyrinth, a surreal, extraordinary but safe space to question and wait to see the sort of answers that come up. It has made me wonder about how the quality of our lives can be directly connected to the quality of the questions and curiosity that we might be asking of the world that surrounds us. It can be so easy to focus on that which we see, which really is a very fraction of that which is actually there. It can be easy to get caught up in the daily humdrum (which is actually quite extraordinary) and also focusing on that which we do not have rather than what we do have. The journey around the Labyrinth is also about letting go, about not having attachment to unnecessary ‘stuff’. We have all been, at some point in our lives, in that place of ‘when I get a house/car/llama/computer/decent haircut I will be able to do X, Y and Z…’ but having an attachment to something that may, or may not, be on its way to us, only serves to perpetuate that feeling of not having it. Does that make sense?

There is also a large element of release being that of being able to let go of what might be expected of us. We are all categorised in one way or another. There is a huge stratification of worth going on in human behaviour on so many levels that I don’t even know where to begin with that one. It is not just one blog’s worth of writing but several lifetimes of musing to get your head around the stratification of worth – monetary, class, gender, race, age etc etc – and we all end up internalising that on some level or other, it is practically unavoidable. The story of Talliston and of Joe, the 13 year old boy, bravely finding his way through his own Labyrinth of stories, talks of the courage in being yourself and how the portals open when you find your own shoes to walk in. Joe learns of shedding the narrative that has been painted on him from the outside, the ‘rules’ that he has been taught to live by and of letting go of expectations of being anyone other than himself.

Being true to yourself can feel like a lonely old journey but trying to please others is lonelier still. And empty. There is huge benefit to walking our own Labyrinth and becoming tolerant of ourselves and, as such, freeing ourselves up to become tolerant of others. Accepting that we are all different is the price that we pay to be unique. Over the past year, being stuck with our own thoughts, has been a bit of a Labyrinth journey and, personally, I have regularly encountered the beast of the Minotaur kept below ground in the Labyrinth. I am hoping that Talliston is the path back out again, holding the chalice of hope aloft in the fresh, spring air. Joe, (in the book), meets some extraordinary people along his Labyrinth journey and I shall be forever grateful for the amazing people who pop up along my Labyrinth journey too. Some right proper special folk in there and more than a little sprinkling of magic.

In the words of Laozi (very wise, very ancient) – “If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.”

A Visitor!

I had a visitor! Not just any visitor though, it was the inimitable Ros Green, the director of the Essex Book Festival who has sent me to Talliston in the first place. It is safe to say that the Essex Book Festival does not stick to the standard script and it goes where other book festivals fear to tread. Ros has found ways around restrictions, due to world circumstances, that just make the book festival more exciting than ever and it is running from the 1st June to the 29th August this year. The programme is in the final stages of being finalised and has some true delights in store, both online and in real life.

Over the last few years, I have found myself involved in some wonderful projects, thanks to Ros’ ingenuity and ability, not just to see the bigger picture but to see a picture that nobody else had even imagined in the first place! I have had the privilege of storytelling in a secret nuclear bunker while having my head stuck in a toilet seat/art installation, being part of an amazing 40ft high people photos All In The Same Boat in Harlow, feeding peanut butter to badgers at a Radical Writing Retreat in Othona, laughing until my socks fall off at Ros’ ideas and meeting many inspirational, kind and big thinking people. Ros steps outside of the box, this is an understatement, and her intentions are all based on the wider good. Ros takes the festival to places that do not usually get a look in, like Jaywick Sands , who only ever get talked about in terms of poverty and deprivation, and gives space to people to shine their brilliance while taking none of the credit herself. Ros will continually lend people her strength rather than remind them of their weaknesses and, while this should not be rare, it actually is. While this may seem like a one woman accolade to Ros, it kind of is but there is something much bigger at play. It is the quiet brilliance that underpins all of the good things in the world, the generosity to wish others to thrive and to dine out on the magic that they have created. The wisdom and knowledge that we can do none of this wild life on our own, we need the help of others, the camaraderie, the differences and there is no benefit to be had in taking the credit if this outshines anyone else. The reason why I am (ever so slightly) banging on about this is because there are many crossovers between Ros and John, who has created Talliston. They both create with a generosity and a joy that others may dine out on this and take it forward in their lives, not just this week but for many many moons ahead. Both Ros and John are the very definition of planting a tree under whose shade you shall never sit.

Anyway, as any sane and intelligent person might, Ros beelined towards the investigators office, in New York 1929, as soon as she spotted the typewriter in there. This room was the first room that John completed at Talliston, creating the perfect office for himself to be able to write and work. That makes it sound that writing isn’t work which, of course, it is but there is other work also to be carried out in an office. John went about, in his very precise and joyful way (as I am rapidly learning) creating a room that he could spend many an hour writing and organising. As a complete aside, there is an actual thing called the Zeigarnik effect which is all to do with pressing tasks and how we remember things that we need to do, better than the things that we have already done. I think this is where lists come into their own. We all know about being distracted by the things that we haven’t done yet and, by making a plan, it can feel as though we have some measure of control over the situation. Well, John is the master of organisation. In the office in New York in 1929, every single box, file and drawer has in it exactly what it is labelled to have. There is no such thing as shoving a stapler in the wrong drawer and ‘I’ll sort that out later’, no, John is King Of Correct Drawers. John has the names and contact details of every single person who has volunteered with the house over the years, even down to how many sugars they have in their tea. This is streamlining and efficiency at its most glorious and I’m not sure that there are many things that make you feel more valued than someone knowing exactly how you like to take your tea. It is very easy to see how people keep coming back here.

There is the most drool worthy roll top desk in the office, whiskey at the ready, a super cool phone (that works) and any amount of bits and bobs that pertain to the occupant of the office who is John but is also a New York investigator, Anthony R. Kane, an author, publisher and investigator specialising in the exotic and esoteric. The artefacts around the room tell of Anthony R. Kane’s travels and interests and if you want to know how the investigator fits into the bigger picture then you will have to read the book. He’s a good one anyway, as a very mini spoiler alert. It is not just any old office in any old building in New York. John does not do general. The office sits within a mansion on Fifth Avenue on the Upper East Side overlooking Central Park. Built 1882-87, the design of the three-and-a-half-storey French Renaissance-style mansion is a blending of late French Gothic style and Beaux-Arts refinement. The house and second-floor office are currently rented by an esoteric investigator (Anthony R. Kane) with his many objects illustrating global explorations of its latest occupant. (I copied all of that). The mansion is called Trevalyan Vean. The house was built and owned by Jedediah Elston Trevillian until his death in late 1925. In a bizarre final twist to the wealthy eccentric’s life, his estate, company and fortune were willed not to his squabbling family, but instead to a boy caught trespassing in the grounds on the day of his death. Included in the many properties was Trevelyan Vean, this New York City mansion overlooking Central Park. (I copied all of that as well).

See what I mean about detail? This house has not been thrown together as some sort of fantasy gimmick, this is live immersive theatre happening through every single portal. Each room also has its own moon, season and element – fire, earth, water and air. Running through each room, and throughout the whole gardens, are also the 5 motifs – Ship, Butterfly, Bumblebee, Labyrinth and Oak which I had said on Day 1 that I would talk about one of those each day. There is no point in making a plan here. Time and plans get laughed at by multiple gods within this place so I give up and will just write whatever I am instructed to do at the time. I will talk about Labyrinths before I leave here, though. I’ll have a word with Papa Legba and see if he’s alright with that. Papa Legba is in the kitchen (New Orleans 1954) and is the spiritual god of the crossroads in Haitian voodoo, which is not scary at all as voodoo has been given bad press over the years, it’s fine honestly. Papa Legba likes to be offered keys, rum and/or lost and found things and then he will open up the communication lines with spirits passed across. He’s a bit judgy about how a life has been led and it’s probably not much fun getting past him at the finishing post if you have been a bit of a twat all of your life.

This place is inspiring. Ros is inspiring. John is inspiring. They make magic normal again. In the words of Rumi – Don’t be satisfied with stories, how things have gone with others. Unfold your own myth.

The Most Mirthful Mouse In All The Lands

I was told that there was a mouse hole at Talliston but it took some seeking out, crawling round on the floor and peering under furniture but voila! Much like everything else in this house, this is no ordinary mouse house. He has a carved oak bed, a chest of drawers, wall carvings and a library of mouse related literature. There is nothing that has not been throughly thought through in this house, carefully considered and well and truly loved. There is love oozing out all over the place (not in a dodgy way you understand). Apparently there is a rabbit hole somewhere as well but, so far, I’ve not been able to find it. I’m not going to divulge where the mouse house is, in case you come here and will need to do your own seeking. It’s on floor level is all I’m saying but, by the time you come here, it could have moved out and a zebra moved in. Anything is possible.

Another portal to another land, the portals are plenty and accessed in so many ways using all of the senses. There is music in each room, blue grass in my cabin, classical music in the Welsh watchtower, beautiful Spanish music in Alhambra. I wonder what our own personal playlists might be to our own different portals as music transports us to other lands and other places. There are actually a number of areas across the world known to be energetic hotspots – from ancient megaliths to Ley Lines, these are actual physical portals to other dimensions and scientists have found hard evidence of portals created by the interaction between the Earth and Sun’s magnetospheres. Apparently these portals are extremely volatile and unpredictable, opening and closing in the matter of an instant. It makes perfect sense to me but the best portals are the ones created by our imagination, the ones that connect us to others, no matter where and when we are. Stories are portals to other lands and Once Upon A Time are the words that open the door and invite us to go on an adventure.

Being here has really made me think about how we might use all of our senses in our homes to transport us or, at the very least, make it an enjoyable experience being at home. Do we focus a great deal on the visual and forget the smell and touch and sounds? And what great joy there is in making our homes the most beautiful that they can be as a place to be in, especially over the past year when so many of us have been confined to the homes that we have created. It’s alright for some, you may proclaim and I’m sure that many people have scoffed in the face of John’s dreams as he has created Talliston. The fact is that it has taken 25 years to bring together as John was doing it all from his own wages and learning all the practical stuff along the way, with help from friends and family, and never have the words ‘oh that will do’ passed his lips I imagine. John lives by the words of William Morris, designer, that you should never have anything in your house unless it is beautiful or functional, preferably both. As I have been left with an altered sense of taste and smell, following my tussle with Covid Kevin, being here has inspired me to make the best of what I do have rather than bemoan that which is no longer. It has inspired me to make the very best of everything that I already have, which is a great deal, rather than focusing on not being able to do what I could previously do prior to this tumultuous relationship with Kevin. That’s a pretty cool bonus isn’t it.

At Talliston, you are actively encouraged to nose around and have a play. All of the things in this house are here to be interacted with, they are not just pretty ornaments, sitting bored out of their lampshade minds. Most of these objects would never have met one another if it hadn’t been for John bringing them all together. There are the five senses that are loaded up at every corner but the other sense that has not been forgotten is the sense of humour. It’s fun! It’s meant to be fun. Each room is not an exact replica of what might have been but it is what John has brought back from each time and place. There is enthusiasm everywhere and I am reminded of stomping around the story hut at the School Of Storytelling in Sussex, chanting ‘Nothing great is ever accomplished without enthusiasm.’ Picture much swirling and stamping at each syllable and frenzy making. It can be so easy to get stuck watching other people live their lives and not believing that we have gifts to offer the world, that we do not have what resources we need to start out lives. We need to follow the sparkly breadcrumbs that are scattered everywhere if we were only mindful enough to look. The sparkly breadcrumbs of what makes us smile. I am a massive fan of laughter and the wisdom that is gained through laughter. It is connecting, laughter shrinks the world to a manageable size and there is great learning to be had through laughter rather than simply being the frivolity that it is sometimes seen to be. I leave you with a favourite short ditty…

A little nonsense now and then,

Is cherished by the wisest men.

And truth in merry garb may teach,

Where solemn wisdom may not reach.

Right, i’m off to go and chat with the mouse, there might even be a little tipple left out nearby so I can go and have a proper look…

A Shed Fit For a Trapper

So this is where I slept last night. It’s a shed, not even a particularly massive shed and it’s amazing. The other photo is the view from the bed and the sunrise comes flooding through that little window. Ideal sunrise watching from under the comfort of a duvet. The shed is a log cabin, made of cedar wood and is home to an Englishman turned trapper and guide who lives at Wisakedjak Lodge (the shed) by Kingsmere Lake, Saskatchewan, Canada in April 1948. The lovely trapper man is also called He Who Walks By Night and he is guarding the 13th magic place (the tipi under the shed) and has a mighty task assigned to him. He is also known as Whiskey Jack so might have to don that mantle later on.

The shed is filled with wondrous curios which means that it actually IS a trapper’s hut in Canada in 1948 rather than just pretending to be a trapper’s hut in Canada. If you open the back doors, all exquisitely crafted, it leads onto a small path where you put the bins out and immediately looks onto other houses. I kept stepping in and out of the doors this morning, as it really is stepping through some portal in time and space. This is eco travel at its finest. On a personal note, I had to wonder why I always place myself at the furthest hidden point, away from potential ‘civilisation’ and tucked away in a little nest. To be tucked away is both my greatest wish and my greatest fear combined and sums up the past year beautifully really.

So, I had thought that I would go through the five motifs, one a day, and start with the Bumblebee but actually I just want to talk about ants. I’ve been thinking about ants for many years ever since I spent several days observing them in great detail. I was stuck in a tent on Corfu, at the time, having been bitten by some sort of scorpion and unable to walk. I was waiting for some bikers, who I’d met earlier, to notice that I was missing so that they would come by and take me to hospital as this was pre phones, there was a great deal of luck involved. Anyway, that is a whole other story for a whole other time. While I was festering away in that little brown tent, I watched ants. It was possible to tell the time by them, the weather and they were great company in the absence of all other company and they were going to be, quite possibly, the only witnesses to my demise if the bikers didn’t turn up. Chris (my son) told me that he watched a 3 day battle between two different types of ant in Thailand. Talliston reminds me of ants (without the battle). John, the birth parent of Talliston, reminds of ants.

John is particular about Talliston in a very beautiful way. If you watch ants, it doesn’t take long to witness how particular they are. Ants are never lazy! Although they do, allegedly, take about 250 power naps a day, each nap lasting just over a minute, so I don’t know if that means that they stagger their naps or whether they sleep at night but I’m guessing that, seeing as they only live for a couple of months, that they want to crack on with life. If you think of an ant, you think of hard work, perseverance, discipline and strength. They all work together and can lift crazy amounts of their own body weight and are even known to predict the future, although I’m not going down that road. Ants NEVER have traffic jams which, given the amount of ants there are in any one colony, is quite the feat. If there is an obstacle, they quickly communicate the solution. Fire ants, who are supposedly the strongest and most dominant ants, accept any ants into their colony and consider them family. Hint, hint, nudge, nudge… They have fancy houses, ventilation systems and have been around for about 100 million years. They are 25% of the entire animal biomass on earth. Mind blown and, best of all, they form living bridges. Ants have hospitals and a social security system in the form of two stomachs. They have their own stomach and a social stomach where they store food in case they come across anyone else who is hungry. Ants are brave. Ants make the most of every opportunity and everything that they do is for the benefit of the colony, they share everything that they have. Ants even had a cameo appearance in the Old Testament – ‘Go to the Ant, thou sluggard’ and Solomon had dealings with an ant and ants are forbidden to be killed in Islam. Phew, I’ve been wanting to talk about ants for a really long time… Just one more thing about ants, all ant nests have an entrance patrolled by guards. Some species take this a step further and have soldiers with disc-shaped heads that fit perfectly into their nest entrances. These soldiers serve as living doors, and they control who enters and who stays out. Even ants have to contend with their own Priti Patels.

Ants really listen to one another and the theme of listening runs strongly through every thread that has woven together the beautiful and intricate fabric of the story of Talliston and into every object in the house. Ants teach us that knowledge should be shared, to ignore the little diversions and that the next generation is everybody’s responsibility and also, to adapt to our surroundings. Talliston is exactly this. It is the very embodiment of hard work and perseverance. Talliston is patience in a story and a story well told. Talliston holds an egalitarian heart and shows how, through telling the story of our dreams, we can provide a kinder world for everyone. No man is an island, as the saying goes, and we better ourselves through our acts of service. On a surface level, you could see Talliston as one man’s dream of building an extraordinary world within an ordinary house, but the level of devotion from volunteers tells a very different story. If you listen very carefully to the walls, and maybe that little voice deep inside, it is telling us how we can add value to the world for everyone.

Now I’m off to drink whiskey.

Talliston – Where Thyme Stands Still At The Door

So, I have the very great privilege of staying for a whole week at Talliston House and Gardens courtesy of The Essex Book Festival. I have been lucky enough to have been involved in some spectacularly bonkers events with The Essex Book Festival and I have a feeling that this week will be another to add to the Essex Book Festival list of off the wall triumphs. I would say that it is a great opportunity to have some time on my own and a bit of peace and quiet but after an entire year of being pretty much on my own with complete peace and quiet, that novelty is starting to wear thin. This is something else entirely, however, and I am going to try and bring you a flavour of the experience in some ramblings and I hope you enjoy them as much as i will enjoy writing them.

Tallis – hidden or secret, Ton – a place in or near a wood. Talliston is literally hiding in plain sight and is a not so hidden gem sitting happily and madly in the Essex countryside of Great Dunmow. Talliston is a house where thyme stands guard at the front gate and where time has no power. Some years ago, twenty five years in fact, a man called John had a vision. Well, he started with a set of circumstances, in the way that many do, but it is what he did with those set of circumstances that makes him extraordinary. He took an ordinary house, a 3 bed ex council house semi on an estate in Essex, and turned it into a land of ten different countries and countless portals besides. Talliston is a sacred imagination space, a world of many worlds and a theatre, if you will. A space and time of suspended disbelief, a fantastical reality where house and human have the chance to play and breath together. Gathering together his favourite places and times, John has transformed each room into a different world with the most complete and utter care and attention i have ever seen. There is no detail left untended, no object left without a job, each and every item is so loved and thought through that my mind has been well and truly burst open.

To set the scene, you walk up to Talliston and the front garden is The Old Rectory, England, in 1852 complete with a 20,000 year old standing stone upon which is carved a labyrinth. The hall and stairs take you to Italy, Palazzo di Ombre, in 1992 while the living and dining room is a Welsh Watchtower in 1887. The kitchen, where i sit now, is 1954 New Orleans and just round the corner is the bathroom, a Norwegian Lighhouse set in 1986. The back garden is Ireland, 1933 and (where i am sleeping) is the shed, a Canadian trapper’s hut in 1948. Go through to the conservatory and you have a Waystation in Japan in 2282. Upstairs leads you to a bedroom in a Scottish Manor in 1911, another bedroom in 1977 Granada, Spain and a 1929 New York investigator’s office. The loft is a Cambodian tree house of course. I’m not even joking. Oh, and there is also a tipi stored under the shed which is the ultimate magic portal and is set up in a field in the summer. Every room is a moment in time and is entirely led by John’s love of those places and his love of beauty. Every object in the house knows exactly what it has to do. Each object stands proudly, knowing that it has been carefully considered and chosen for its own unique job.

All of the places are woven together beautifully in a story, The Stranger’s Guide To Talliston, of Joe, a 13 year old boy, who becomes trapped within the Labyrinth trying to find his parents and facing the challenges along the way that any decent hero must face. An ordinary boy on an extraordinary journey, there are many words that hit home. The Labyrinth is protecting the last magical places on earth which is something that rings true to the way that we are using up our beautiful earth’s powers. All of the ancient mythologies are there and set within a new story.

There are 5 motifs running as themes throughout the house. There are many many things that connect all of the disparate parts throughout the house but there are 5 motifs that represent the stories and are the bedrock for John’s thinking and way of leading life in general. There is the Oak and Acorn that is Inspirational, giving ideas for building a better now. The Bumblebee that is Challenging, to encourage continuous improvement. The Butterfly, Transforming, about creative focus on producing, not consuming. The Labyrinth, Magical, about the pursuit of dreams and adventures and the Ship, The Journey, that with inner belief, we can all achieve extraordinary things. I may focus on one of those each day that I am here. I might end up slipping through a portal and finishing up who knows not where. I can already feel myself wanting to go on about ants and the Japanese 7 lucky gods. Most of all I want to talk about magic because that is really what this is about, for me anyway. I’m guessing that each person who walks through these doors finds their own story and why wouldn’t they.

I have always believed in magic, I never stopped. Magic is ridiculed, magic is feared and people try and stamp out magic although it makes no sense, why they would want to do that? As we grow, we are told to only believe in what we can see, to tone down our imagination while, all the time, the entire universe around us is hidden in plain sight. We can’t actually see space but it is there. Our imagination is infinite, it picks out what we know and fills in the rest of the picture which is amazing isn’t it? When we play, we can go wherever we want, think whatever we want. Imagination transcends that which we are told is real and that is what we are told to dampen. The term, magical thinking, has even become pathologised as a psychological disorder, although the act of prayer could be thought of as magical thinking. What exactly is magic? Is it knowing what is possible or is it knowing what is impossible? Is it thinking about what a thing is or what it is not? We often define ourselves by that which we are not – I am not thin/clever/beautiful/rich etc etc and we become fond of creating safe binary narratives that limit our thought. Is magic the space between everything being possible (which would be very boring indeed) and everything being impossible (which would be soul destroying)? It is in the space and the contrasts of the possible and the impossible that magic lies. All of the ‘Aha’ moments lie in the spaces. Imagine that moment when you are watching a magic trick, that glorious suspension of the possible and the impossible, that feeling of intense curiosity and your heart and mind asking one question on top of the other, that holding of breath and focus on awe and wonder. That is magic. Imagine if our whole lives were directly connected to that quality of the spaces in-between. Well, that is what John has done with Talliston. The whole house manages to hold the spaces in-between, the gaps where the magic lies. Not only that, you can come and have a taste of that magic as Talliston is open to Joe public as well as Joe down the rabbit hole and round the Labyrinth. John will take you around Talliston and tell you the tale of its creation and of all of the minute details and your mind, too, will be blown wide open. John also hosts tea parties and dinner parties here and you can stay overnight in any of the magical rooms. I’d strongly advise it and, now that we are all being released back into the wild, Talliston will be open once more from the 12th April. Do it… Although don’t blame me if you end up through some portal and being very very very late back home.

Kevin – We Need To Talk

Kevin pictureKevin picture courtesy of artist Majid Adin


Dear Kevin,

We first met at the beginning of March this year at my neighbour’s house. I spotted you straight away, but my neighbour was having none of it and gaily went hither and thither ensuring your survival. That was a good choice of human Kevin, he certainly wasn’t going to keep it to himself.

You soon leapt to join me and we have now been sharing my body for over 19 weeks, 136 days, 4 months, look at it however you will. As we have got to know each other so intimately, I have decided to call you Kevin, Covid Kevin, so that we can relate on first name terms.

Kevin, nobody can accuse you of not having any imagination or creativity as you manage to cook up the most bizarre symptoms for your virus and, so far, I have counted 66 different symptoms that you have gifted me during our time together. Headaches, fevers, extreme fatigue, bruised feet, cough, the squits, loss of words, dodgy heart, difficulty breathing to name just a few. Did I mention the extreme fatigue? That seems to be your trump card, absolutely dashing the will to live and ability to do anything at all, anything. Cleaning my teeth has become a feat of triumph.

At first, I thought you might just stay for a little while and then be on your merry way but it appears that we are in it for the long haul. I have tried to understand you Kevin and, I have to say, I do have a level of grudging respect for the strength of your survival instinct. I do admit to hating you at first and you are scary, let’s face it, you do seem to take people out all of a sudden and you have no rhyme nor reason as to who you wallop with your indiscriminate gaze. I was talking with my friend Majid (Majid did that brilliant picture of you, he’s nailed you don’t you think?) and he said that I was understanding you all wrong. I was a bit jealous at first, I thought that Majid liked you and I’d developed this deep mistrust of you blah blah blah but anyway, Majid said that me and you have something very important in common. WE BOTH WANT TO STAY ALIVE! Well, that was a game changer. I felt a bit sorry for you then. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want us to be together forever but I get where you’re coming from now.

Kevin, I have been in some really rubbish relationships but you really do take the prize. This has to be the worst relationship ever and I don’t want us to live together forever, but I see now that I can’t just kick you out. It doesn’t work like that. The third person in our relationship, however, is Death and neither of us want him lurking around.

Actually Kevin, apart from the sickness, the wanting to die, the nearly dying several times, the complete head f**k, unemployment and utter isolation, you have gifted me a few things. I’ve certainly found out who my friends are, that’s for sure. Some people have run for the hills. Some people have proper stepped forward. Some people have just talked nonsense. I have also been able to get a bit creative. I started making stuff out of rubbish, papier mache, rather manically, trying to quell the ever rising panic that I wasn’t going to make it out the other side of this, trying to get my hands to work and coordinate because, Kevin, you. have. got. into. my. brain. I’m seriously not happy about that, you are not allowed to stay there. That is my own personal boudoir, a no go zone, you must get out of there Kevin. Another place you seem to like is my feet. I get that, I like my feet too. I like all feet actually, but I particularly like my feet. You have covered them in bruises and made them swollen and painful which means that I am often confined to the sofa.

This brings me to another gift that you have brought me and that is endless box sets. I am coming to the end of this fascination but it has been fascinating. I’ve never had the time, nor the inclination, to sit, lay, dangle, for hours and days upon end watching stuff. I have never felt so utterly crap that all I can do is stare at a screen for days and weeks upon end, being a passive recipient of stuff. There is something quite glorious about that although I find it hard to put into words. One of the reasons that I find it hard to put into words is because you have stolen very many of my words and I LOVE words. You shouldn’t have stolen my words Kevin, that was just rude. Like marching into the sacred boudoir of my brain was rude. You probably found my words in a drawer in my brain and it is rude to rummage around in other people’s drawers without permission. I do feel that once we have established a few more ground rules, and definitely some manners, then we might get along a bit better.

I do like what you did for the environment Kevin, that was cool. If only humans had taken that on board, then it would be something positive out of this whole saga. Sadly, humans can be a bit greedy and more than a little bit stupid, which is probably why you are having such a raging success Kevin. It’s pretty easy to stay alive when loads of humans don’t even believe you exist. There are loads and loads of brilliant humans, though, so there is a great deal of hope. I do like how you made all the normal people really important, like delivery drivers. I wept at a delivery driver once, in the early stages of our relationship Kevin, and threw money at him as I felt so grateful. He probably thought I’d lost the plot. He’d have been right. I do like how you have given the world a chance to breathe. For animals to wander unhindered. For birds to claim the skies once more. Short lived, but it was good while it lasted. I do also like how you brought out the creativity and humour in people, some people anyway, and the generosity and kindness to their fellow humans. It would be great if that lasted too.

I think you probably meant to polish me off Kevin but you hadn’t banked on the strength of the power of love. I’m really lucky you see, I have people that love me. I’m a mother. I also have a really really cool dog friend, Tom, who certainly wasn’t going to let me go in a hurry. He has stuck to me like glue and taught me the true art of chilling out. He is the master of Chill and has a heart the size of this planet.

So, Kevin, for now we continue to share my body. You continue to spring surprises on me every day and I never know what you have up your Covid sleeve. You have taken me to the very darkest of places but I’m still here. I don’t know how long our relationship is going to last but I’m still here. I may never recover fully but I will recover. You will either disappear or just go to sleep and wake up when I overdo things, a reminder. Maybe, Kevin, you are simply getting us in training for what is to come because, as we have all come to learn, you never know what is just around the corner. As creative as you are Kevin, humans are actually more so. There are some fantastic humans out there and it may be thanks to you, Kevin, that we find a healthier path to travel along together.     With much respect,

from your host, Glenys Newton

Thanks Giving


Apparently yesterday was the most depressing day of the year. Something to do with Monday and darkness and no money and it all makes sense really.

On a day, presuming that Tuesday is equally as depressing as Monday or does it get better? when we probably all feel like doing what Tom is doing in the photo which is just snuggling down under the covers, I thought I’d write something a bit cheerful for a change.

Now, over recent times, I haven’t really given myself over to cheerful thoughts. There’s too much to be pissed off about but I thought I’d give cheerful a go and give thanks for some good stuff that is going on. Here goes…

  • Thank you to all the drivers who slow down for horses on the road. You have no idea what a difference it makes. In days gone by, young people used to drive past parping their tuneful airhorns and belly laugh as you disappeared into a ditch on a spooked out horse. Pretty much every single young person slows down now. I like to think that this is generally indicative of young people who are, overall, a great deal nicer than we ever were. Motorbikes always slow down. Motorbike people are brilliant.
  • Thank you to blokes on the trains who seem to be getting nicer than they were before. On recent trips on the train I have met only with politeness and courtesy. It makes the whole experience a whole lot more relaxing. If you are wondering whether to offer your seat and open the door and all that stuff, please go ahead. I think it’s nice. I don’t see being offered a seat as offensive. As a woman, life is generally more exhausting than if you’re a bloke so I’m happy to get to sit down. Chivalry, the same as altruism, is not a sign of weakness or anything other than being considerate in my opinion.
  • Thank you to people who give a shit. My son is currently trawling through the streets of Paris dishing out sleeping bags. He doesn’t make a great song and dance about it, he just does it. Like him, there are thousands and thousands of people who just get on and do things that are of no benefit to themselves but do it just because it is the right thing to do. However small the gesture, showing you care makes the world a better place and I am immensely grateful to each and every person who does this. You are what makes this world go round.
  • Thank you to Toblerone who do not use palm oil to make their chocolate. Since I have become aware of the whole palm oil things, feeding my chocolate habit has become more complex. Fortunately, Toblerone is delicious and palm oil free and it is also substantial.
  • Thank you to snowdrops. Just when the winter feels unbearable and I feel like I can’t put another step forward in these dark days, snowdrops burst out of the ground with their brave little cheery heads. Every single year they cheer me up no end. They are the brave pioneers of the flower world, daring to go where no other flower dares to go, pushing through the frost and snow to be able to dangle hope in front of our winter weary eyes. I love them.
  • Thank you to people who support the efforts of others, whatever those efforts are. So many people are battling away to get projects and ideas, anything, off of the ground and everyone needs support. Nobody can do any of this on their own. If someone has arrived to a new place then support is vital in doing what might seem like a small thing but would be massive to that person. Thank you to people who support us ‘artists’ doing whatever it is. It might seem like a carefree and glamorous life but it’s seriously not and support is gratefully received from all angles.

I could actually go on but I’ll stop there. Apparently being grateful makes you healthier so that’s a good a reason as any to give thanks for things. We are lucky, so so lucky, for where we are born, for so many things. I have no idea why we are so lucky and some people are so unlucky but I definitely feel inclined to share that rather than bemoan the fact that other people want in on a bit of that luck. Who wouldn’t? Finally, thank you for reading this.


Welcome to 2018

Welcome to 2018, we are a week into it and we haven’t yet been nuked so things are not looking as bad as they could do. I have stolen this photo from a friend who sent it from the other side of the world where the sun is currently shining and she assures me that things are just as insane her end of the world too. Whether that is a consolation or not remains debatable.

I don’t know whether you do new year resolutions or not but I have been thinking about how to approach this year so as not to go nuts. In the words of H.G. Wells – ‘Am I dreaming? Has the world gone mad – or have I?’ That is what it felt like last year and I feel like I need to change that a bit. It’s hard to create positive change, to actually make it happen, if you feel completely disillusioned and depressed and think that the whole world has disappeared up the Swanee without a paddle so I’ve decided to try and look at things a bit differently.

There is a fine balance to be had between searching out in the world, trying to understand what’s happening, trying to do your bit to make this world a slightly better place and hanging onto a bit of healthy headspace. I’m not entirely sure what the answer is but one of them is the way we take notice of the media. News is dished out on so many media forms now that it is hard to discern what is real, what is complete fiction, what is put out there just to keep us all terrified, what is put out there for the benefit of goodness only knows who. One of the big differences now, though, is the fact that not only do we have to find ways of responding to what has happened in the world, responding to the news that we read/hear about but we also have to work out how people are interpreting and reacting to what has happened. In the meantime, what has actually happened can get lost. Take, for example, a terrorist attack. People get killed. Innocent lives are lost. That is the event that is reported. The reaction to that event can completely overwhelm what has happened and not in a healthy way. Innocent people are persecuted, their lives made a misery, not by what happened but by people’s reactions to what has happened. So I am going to challenge this on every level within my capacity.

It feels as though, as a people, we are becoming immune to the madness that surrounds us all. There is madness and sanity in the world. There is madness and sanity within each and every one of us. We must pander to the sanity and not stay silent to the madness that just allows the monster to grow. I have said this before but will say it again, there is a narrative going on this country that would have felt impossible even just a couple of years ago and it feels as though we are just letting it happen. Maybe it is like the experiment where a dog is locked in a cage and given electric shocks, so they move from one side of the cage to the other. Eventually, the dog just stops moving and accepts the shocks. Even when the cage door opens, the dog continues to just lie there. No idea who does these experiments or why or how a whole string of people think it’s alright to do it but I’m just using it as an example. Are we, by being bombarded, by all the shite that we are being bombarded with just lying there, with the cage door open, accepting shocks? So, personally, I refuse to remain immune. My act of rebellion will be to carry on giving a shit.

I still remain in the belief that people’s stories are one of the most important things in our world. Without our stories we would not exist. What is another statistic in the news is one person’s story that ripples across the world. I will keep on telling people’s stories and I urge people to do the same, to listen to people’s stories, to talk less and listen more and leap across all man created divides in the same way that stories are able to. As a shameless plug at this point, in Cambridge on the 20th January we are telling stories of displacement, loss, of our ancestors and it will be fantastic. Join Cambridge Storytellers to be inspired to tell your own family stories, we all have them, for better or for worse.

And in the vein of telling people’s stories, it’s still happening in Calais except it’s worse than it’s ever been. This is what is happening. More support than ever before is needed. If you feel inspired to help then there are organisations on the ground who would gladly welcome your time and there is plenty that can be done from the comfort of your own home. You can contact Refugee Community Kitchen Help Refugees or Care 4 Calais

There are local organisations that I’d be happy to point you towards but a quick google search usually does the trick. All of these organisations also work with local homeless people who are also sleeping out in these conditions. It’s not ok. There is research to show that volunteering does all kind of good things to you health wise as well. If this photo nudges you to do something then I doff my cap to you and give eternal thanks. If this photo does nothing to you at all then give your head a wobble.

Happy New Year. May 2018 be filled to the brim with random acts of kindness.